okie... i know i changed my blogskin again... haiz.. but i wan to find the one i like, but my taste n mood keeps changing, so havta suit it ah... hee..

I've finalised my contract already. 6mths, but i think i'm gonna break the contract nearing the end... my hrs.. needless to say, are as sucky. Mon to Fri 6pm-11pm. Alt sat off, but my sat are still 6pm-11pm. Haiz.. its starting tis sun on the 1st aug, which means sun is my offday. Haa.. but i think i wanna go back and work for a couple of hrs.. hee..wanna earn cash. But i don't think i will like officially sign the contract that soon though, haven even give in my contract. Whopps..

Oh yeah, my 'si-jie' came back to look for us today and god.. i've found out that out of the current strength of like 98 CPOs, there are like 33 ex airline crew. They were like simply talking tis frm SIA, that frm Emirates, tis frm Cathy, that frm UA, Wah.. it simply got me confused lor.. i simply couldn't keep up. But woah, they really got the ex-air stewardness poise lor.. Heard frm them that the best thing bout flying is the many offdays that they get. Haa.. Well, my si-jie is currently a leading air-stewardness with Valueair, think she enjoys flying lah.. frm Emirates to United now to tis.. well hopefully all goes well for her! But i really do miss her, she's so cool.. really like a sis to me, but she's so busy nowadays that its really hard to met up wif her...

N when i was further bored, i went to count again, and tis time found out that there are 29 of my current colleagues that were frm NP.. oh my gosh, really got thrend there lor.. but its fun lah, everyone feels so connected. Hee.. One of my sup is apparantly my lec's gd buddy in JC.. it made me think, the banking industry in s'pore is really small huh... hee..

ok i really havta go sleep already.. gotta wake up at like 11am.. damm...
 





I've finally got things out.. talked things over.. Totally glad that he understands my point of view. I'm not sure if he was hurt though, can't see thru his facade, but I wish him well. May he find someone who gives him happiness and love him.

I've grown since knowing him.. i think thru tis experience i've finally sorted out my focus in life... Also thru tis that i realised how determined i am..it was hard, god.. i can't believed i went thru all that.. but its all over!! phew.. He's leaving tmr morning.. China for 2 mths.. i guess its fated huh..

My life has become sorta a cycle.. work home work home.. i'm signing my 6mths contract next mon, kinda excited n worried at the same time. Workload pressure will increase, I guess although i do enjoy my job as a whole, but from time to time it feels horrible to drag myself there.. well that's life... my complains.. its never gonna end huh...

I've thought thru a lot last time.. the future is what my mind was on. Planning my work schedule is already a headache, guess earning isn't easy. Actually, my pay isn't that high.. though many of my girlies disagree, but really it isn't.. cuz due to the lifestyle i'm used to and the bills i've gotta pay. Hah.. it really is pretty little to spend on myself at the end of the day.. It time to start a earning n spending worksheet... The other thing that brought me heartache was leaving my friends n family next yr... tears will really flow. I've thought thru already.. its likely that i might not tell my friends my exact date of leaving for aus, i don't wanna break down.. Forgive me my dear friends, if that does happen.. Leaving my luv ones behind n starting anew in aus is really gonna be hard on me..

But i best set those thoughts aside first. Gonna go prepare for work.. haiz.. life's cycle..





i think i need to spice up my life... its getting to be a bore already... to me i mean... its all work, home and go out from time to time... then all the aft work suppers... arg!! cannot cannot tis cannot go on... i'm really really getting bored!! ya know what.. i think i kinda enjoy sch... missed it infact... haiz...

Oh yeah.. n i have a new shopping list:
1. Specs (donno what kinda pattern i wan yet though)
2. Belts (a brown leather one n a army green canvas one)
3. Wedge Shoes
4. Sling bag
 
Oh yeah.. n watched Connie & Carla today.... damm funny show bout drag queens... hmm makes me think, i might wanna go have a look at drag queens in real life.. see what's its like, gonna be interesting i bet. hee...







its a relatively good day for me.. actually my colleagues tot i'm bit funny. Cuz actually i'm kinda having a tummy upset, but yet i'm still freaking cheerful. but haa.. by the end of my shift, my paitence started to wear thin... actually never irritated me when its coming to the end of my shift. i get pissed off damm easily... haa...
 
Decided to sign contract to be a CPT... after so many times.. haa.. bit paiseh, cuz bossed asked me like trice.. but haa... in the end i agreed, but i think they wld prefer if i were to join as a CFT instead of a CPT. but i think i wanna enjoy my youth and felxibility of the working hrs.. haa.. perhaps someday sometime.. but not soon. Sorry boss.. Still i get a pay rise!! hee... ok ok don't bash me, i know my pay is relatively high already, but still.. i get a lot of shit ok.. oh yeah, n i am starting to learn how to cuss in french and italian already.. courtesy of my colleague...haa..
 
Currently still in the office, typing tis.. when i'm like off work.. can go home.. but since i'm waiting for my colleague.. why not blog.. haa... ok i'm mad i know.. but i'm bored!!! actually there are freaking a lot of things that i havta do in the office, but i simply am too lazy to do it.. so there!!
 
Soooooo looking forward to clubbing tmr.. or shd i say ltr.. haa... dance the night away...
ok... mad person signing off...




i'm really mad not to be sleeping at tis time. but i've become addicted to downloading songs again, tis time frm irc. Donno what's up wif me lah.. i always have tis like addictive period to some new stuff, then it wears off aft a while.

my manager approached me again today, asked if i wanna sign 6mths contract. 3rd time she asking already, bit paiseh everytime nv reply her. Tis time i'm given until fri to think bout it. Shd i? haiz.. i really donno.. but it seems like most ppl encouraging me to.. hmm.. but i think i will. Perhaps.. guess i will be mugging around the 'shd i or shd i not' question these couple of days.

went for like half hr shopping today and ended up buying 3 cds:
Elva Hsiao - Beautiful Episode
Atomic Kitten - Greatest Hits
Love Songs Compilation (3 discs)
found out that music companies getting smarter. Esp EMI, wah.. their cds can't be even played on the computer, damm protected frm burning..

Oh yeah, n my shopping list is like increasing again.
I think i need to get a small black bag thats plain and Ohhh i saw tis roxy sling bag in white&pink. Very nice.. hee think i might go get it. Oh yeah.. n saw the LV bag that i wanted. ARG!!! SAVE! SAVE! SAVE!

looking forward to tis fri clubbing.. hmm.. i think i have some change in drinks taste already, donno why.. but nowadays i kinda dislike the lamborgini taste.. actually don't even wanna drink that.. i'm kinda addicted to shots now... hee.. just being a weirdo..

hmm... i was surfing online today at work again, got bored, so went to look at photo albums.. i realised that tis is really one of my fav pics.. there's just something bout it that really so wonderful.. i don't think us 8 gals have ever had a photo taken like tis.. its so real and touching actually..



looks like its gonna rain.. sky really quite red... i think i better head to bed now.. on a long long shift ltr.. up til 1am.. haiz.. life..



life's full of complications and a big big bothersome!! can't avoid it and facing it is a big headache, so what is u overcome it, it still takes a lotta energy to do so. shitz..
 
oh ya, n WTF i just heard that there's tis yr 1 student in NP that drives a ferrari 360 spider?? to sch? that guy must be mad, either that or he's just a plain show off, yah lah, wif him being 'rumoured' to be the son of a father who has some like major shares in paragon, i expect so. But still?? driving a Ferrari or father's Bentley to sch... Irritating sia... put the cash to better use lah... wah kaoz... 
 
click here to check it out..





working long hrs on sunday. GOD! back then when i was studying, working on sun was like a 'refresher" like break away frm sch. but now its like 'what the heck!' sia... yah lah there are pros n cons of my job, flexible hrs n the pay are like the most fatanstic aspect of the job n thank god the ppl here make up for all the shit of the job. But its really pretty sucky in a way cuz i havta support evening hrs, which means i havta give up dinners/meetings wif friends n family. I think the last time i had dinner at home was like 2mths ago n the last time wif my parents was CNY eve dinner.. Due to my eccentric parents(mainly my mom!) flying here n there plus my working hrs.. i don't get to see them much. Even now, when my mom is like so free (official tai-tai) i only get to see her like only 3 times per week... My working hrs are seriously quite fucked up. ARG!!

Think i need to spend more time wif my family, since i think its like 90% confirm that i'm leaving to aus next yr already. Gee.. but haa... at least have LL to accompany me!! gee.. my partner for the next donno donkey 2 yrs.. haa... bear wif me LL.. hee...

Last nite was talking to my friends bout a certain friend of ours, complaining bout that friend. I don't understand how the rest of them can really give in and give in and give in and say ok. ok, i know i always give in too, but i complain too.. haa.. contridicting rite.. well thats me.. but in any case, thanks to thoes 2 who listened to my complains... haa...

i need to spice up my life soon... its getting to be a bore... another travel trip?? hmm... nah.. i think i better think of other ways... anyone has any sugguestions??

oh yeah... n my peeling has gotten much much worse, now's my upper hands are peeling real real badly... n i have a new nick name: hei ren.. hee..

btw: BEST WISHES UNCLE SAM!! gd luck for ya studies in aussie.. will come visit ya wif LL soon!!..hee...



I'M PEELING!! arg!! irritated!!.. my face is so ugly with all the skin flakes.. arg!! i think i wanna just do a facial scrub and get rid of all the peely flakes all at once. ARG!!

btw, enjoy some of the pics frm redang...






the view for lunch... fantasic rite? jealous?? haa...


my beach lounge view... gee...


beach gals 84...




my idiot chatterbox had some problems, shit sia, now havta start a chatterbox again. ARG!! irritating... gonna blog my bintan trip later... its dinner now.. gee... think i'm gonna change my blogskin again... hee..



back frm my redang trip... totally sunburnt. haiz... price to pay. but its all worth it, the sand sea n surf. unforgettable n unbelievable, but totally touching. Although i've been to other islands before, but tis is really really my most unforgettable one. The clear blue sea, coral reef n fishes. Gosh, its true that people only remember beauty and not pain, so i'll forget my sunburnt pain and will always remember the beauty of Pulau Redang.

Day1
Reached at about 11pm, even along the way to redang, the sea is unforgettable. Frm the dark blue sea, to the light blue that u can even see the corals n fishes below. Gosh, so touching that no words can express. Checked in and had lunch, for a small island, the buffet lunch is sumptuous, gee... Our bedroom was quite cool as well, four individual beds for each of us. Gee.. We then changed and walk ard the beach. So So So daMm BEAUTIFUL. I have no other words to express sia. Totally totally 'woah', sometimes u just can't believe that u are see such beauty with ur own eyes. Just looking out at the sea u can see it endless and where the horizon meets the sea. ARG!! I'm missing redang so much at tis point of time.

We then went for the deep sea snorkelling trip. Hee.. saw weiling's guide on her previous trip. Nicknamed him blackie, he's malay n so freaking dark! arg!!. The deep sea snorkellin was an expreience unforgettable. The fishes are just below u and u are just swimming about them. Saw Nemo n Dory!! haa.. so cool and also got to know the waterproof handphone. haa.. actually its just a sea cucumber. gee.. but po was totally funny cuz she's scared to touch it. hee... We then returned at bout 4pm, headed for the resort's pool to cool down. Ard 5pm we headed to look for Blackie (his real name is Joe), gonna bring us to look for baby sharks... so excited! I saw baby sharks ages ago when i snorkel in at Pulau Tinggi, now i saw them again. Though its far away and u can't touch baby sharks, but its totally breath-taking just seeing them just less than 5ft away. Joe brought us to the coral reef just off the edge of the beach. Blackie brought a loft of bread along as well, we then feed the fishes. So freaking cool! The fishes are eating out of my hand literally, gee... and they are so within reach. Touched a couple of fishes and mind u, they are not easy to touch sia, just when u are close to them u can feel the power of their tails. Saw groupas, stripes fishes, clown fishes n much much more that i can't name. But feedin the fishes, ah!! elated happy thrilled. Ended the day with a nice dinner buffet and walking ard the beach. btw, they had a beach party disco, stopped there for a moment and saw aunties dancing to 'uptown girl' haa.. funni!! We then sat and the boardwalk bar of the resort to drink n chat. Blackie caught up wif us for the walk ard the beach we then treated him to 'harry mao' gee.. tiger beer.. We all slept so nicely and fast too, think we were tired. Even poh slept earlier than usual..

Day2
Woke up late. Missed breakfast. Was suppose to get up at 6.30pm, but my handphone rang, and it was off. Lucky lav woke up or else we wld have missed the marine park snorkel trip. Hee.. Lucky we were just in time. Saw Blackie again. He seems to be always there ah. Hmm.. Felt a bit sunburnt at the morning, but i heck care. Hee.. The Marine Park was fantastic! The fishes are really all together. Saw so many of the fishes, although many of them were the same, but tis time we saw a huge huge groupa(i think thats what its called) so freaking big, swam ard (Blackie brought us) Saw so many fishes. Then me weiling n lav dived down to touch the 'christmas tree' Its actually a big rock thats yellow in colour and on it there's furry little puffs that are like mimosa, it closes up when touched. So cool!! We then saw tis big big fish that looks like a 'luo han' fish, frm more than 10ft away we saw n it looked that big, i wonder how it looked when its only like 2ft. But we didn't get that close a chance. Po then didn't felt well, so she headed to the shore to sit. Its so cool, when u are swimming to shore, u can see ppl standing in the water and fishes just swimming across them. Joe then called us to see the electric eel. Me ducky n lav swam over. A few of the snorkel divers/guides were ard and one of the used the raw fish to lure the eel out. My god, it is HUGE!! me lav n ducky were so near it, the first attempt wasn't successul. But the second attempt was! It so huge i think its length is like more than 1nhalf story and like 15inches in width. One of the divers just juggle the eel up, swinging it frm left arm to right arm. Brave man! but me lav n weiling was so scared cuz juggling made the eel coming up just underneath us! we pushed each other to get away. Damm scary! On the way of gg back to the resort, the 4 of us sat one the front of the boat and hung our legs over. Unforgettable, the sea is so blue and flowing under us and water splashing over and the sea right in front, the sun shining brightly and seagulls just fly passed us. Just looking at the water as the boat moves over it, the blueness u can see. just think its like a scene frm a movie like free willy. U can just see the sparkel of the water! We hung ard on the beach aft lunch and took many many photos, with the sun behind us. Totally more more tea inn movie sia.. gee.. of course we saw the inn and took photos of it. hee... Spending the day jumping the waves. But we all got sunburnt in the end. hee.. but totally worth it. Aft dinner we headed for the ktv, sang n sang, but in the end, we were lured by the rnb/hiphop music outside the room, ended up clubbing away... gee.. 1st time i wore shorts, t/shirt n slippers to club, haa...hee.. i was tired so went back to the room to rest, as well as to that i'm quite burnt n in pain, thus i stayed back with poh in the room while lav n weiling spent the night outside talking and stuff. Woke up in the morning late again, po weiling n lav ran all the way to see the sunrise, but i opted out cuz i wanna pack bag n as well as to cool my burnt skin. We ate the most rushed breakfast and sat the boat back. We sat on the top and i totally closed my eyes and enjoyed the feel of the wind rush in my face.

I'm totally missing redang, totally totally, on the boat ride home, my tears started to well at some points. Redang Redang Redang. Now i only have photos for memory, hope they turn out well..



hee... bored so change blogskin..nice?? Actually was doing so last nite already. but my irriating com hung. so all effort wasted! irritating. I'm so excited bout my upcoming trips. Though timing so freaking tight, but don't care. Haa... gonna have fun!! so excited!! Club Med Bintan & Redang Redang Redang!!! haahaa haa.. i'm so so happy. Taking another 6 days off. Gee..

Sun nite did an impromtu bday celebration for alex at my place. Haa was so freaking funny to see him wif make-up. Haa... Will nv forget his look sia. Cheers alex!! Thanks for being sporty. Hee...

Think i wanna go for massage in bintan.. my back aching again. gee.. expensive?? hmm...

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