- Monday, January 24, 2005 / 3:56 am.
I'm contemplating on moving out. Is that a good thing or a bad? cuz i really don't know if i wanna live here anymore. I mean, I love staying at serangoon, its good, my friends are here, i know the place, its near the city etc, but I think its time i start to live life on my own, what do u think?
Now here are my thoughts on the good n bad of moving out.
The Good is:
I get my own space. I can do whatever i wan. I don't have ppl breathing down my neck on doing tis doing that. I can munch out all the time. My things will be much more organised. I can walk ard my place wearing whatever I wan. I can be free. I won't need to share a room anymore. I can play the music all night long. I can make a mess and not clean up until i feel like doing so. I can put my stuff where i wan w/o having someone nag at me. I can walk ard the place with my shoes. I don't have to sneak ard.
Now tis is the Bad:
I won't be able to wake up at lunchtime to a good home cook meal. I havta do my own laundry. Me being broke, I won't be able to afford a notebk now, so there goes my internet access. No SCV. No more being able to ask my dad to pick me up n send me home. No more opening the fridge and being able to find food for me aft work. No more being pampered. Having to spend money on groceries. Have to pay for electricity & water bills. Having to fix anything that breaks down by myself. Have to cook for myself everyday. Have to mop & clean the place. Being alone when u need someone to talk to. Not being able to have the sercurity n knowing that u're alone. Have to buy my own newspapers. Not being able to ask for money help when i'm cash strapped. No more leaving stuff over the place n know that when i wake up, they will be cleaned up. No more sleepin on my nice leather couch n waking up to the smell of breakfast. No more sunday good food. No more channel 48.
Ok, thats enough, I will stop torturing myself. I'm staying put, no more moving out. I'm too much into the Bad to see any good in the Good. Heck, I will be livin alone when i'm stuck in Aus. Where the hell did i came up with the stupid idea of 'contemplating in moving out'??? SHOOT ME...
- Sunday, January 23, 2005 / 6:00 pm.
I'm bloggin in the office!!! haa... been so long since i've done tis... n today's a good day to work... glad i chose today man...
I'm still a bit 'dian' 'dian', as in crazy... i guess my kinda high is getting crazy... but last nite at dbl o was one of the best clubbing nites i've had... its so fun to get all crazy & drink & dance to great music with the same grp of ppl that shares the same feeling as u... its fun to be able to go all mad not be restricted i guess... hee...
I'm gg clubbing next week b4 i convert into a CFT... anyone interested??? let me know ya...
- Thursday, January 20, 2005 / 4:15 pm.
I'M SOOO FRUSTRATED!!!! Is it that difficult to reply a msg? Are they really that busy? Am i that irritating? Do i msg them too much? Am i pressurizing them? ALL I ASKING IS A SIMPLE REPLY???? IS THAT THAT TOUGH????? Don't bloody tell me that an sms is expensive... I'm not buying that. I DETEST, HATE, DISLIKE, DISPISE, LOATHE BEING LEFT HANGING THERE!!!!! Those who didn't reply my sms today... u know who u are..
Everytime said that I didn't ask them out, why wern't they told that 2 or 3 are meeting up, how come they were left out, always saying I miss u, miss the talks, miss the bitching, blah blah blah, But not an effort made by themselves to be there? Whats the use? Saying that I treasure u, Love u, Miss u.. all talk.. actions never show what they said do they? Has life really become so busy that its so hard to get all to meet up for just a drink? Or is it really that we havta depend on occasions like Chinese New Year, Birthdays to get everyone together? Has our friendship become that realiable that non of us would bother to make an effort to meet up anymore?
Another thing that i'm EXTREMELY disappointed on... all thoes talk bout going travelling for our 21st Bday, FORGET IT!!! ALL TALK N NO ACTION... I'm sick of it, said so much but yet it won't come through... its always like that... forever talk of big plans blah blah blah.. n only like 1 happened... Next Time, they start talking bout it, I'm gonna ask them to shove it.. As it will not happen at all.. I'm sick n tired of always being the one to say Yes, ok, I'll go when others make the plans, but i always end up being the only one left that really CAN go in the end while others back out. Is it really that hard to commit to what they said?
Has our circle of life widen so much that we no longer bother bout old friends? Am i the only one here that feels tis way? You tell me......
- / 2:46 am.
I'M OFFICIALLY A CFT-SHIFTER!!!
Have so many mixed feelings bout changing my contract that its becoming a headache. But then, i think aft taking the plunge... I'm feeling so so much more excited... I'm anxious & worried bout doing my first night, donno if i tahhan thruout the nite? Can i handle nite calls? Will i fall asleep??? Will i get bored??? oh no.. so many worries... plus my first night is on 3rd day of chinese new year... damm... so *urgh*
I'm really plunging myself into being a CFT... More late nights for me den... but i sad, no longer can go clubbin with my darlings on wed or thur liao *sobx* Plus every fri i'm working late shift or night shift *sobx*... I'm gonna party hard tis sat sia.. I must I must... haa... I get lotsa weekends off tis mth though... hee.. goody... but gonna do 2nd off man... earn $$$ is very important for the goals that i have in mind...
PPL... going out let me know ya... 50-50 chances that i can make it due to my irregular schedule... haa... self-inviting myself...
Think its time i change my blogskin... hmm... when i have more time then...
*****SO LOVING SEX IN THE CITY*****
- Saturday, January 15, 2005 / 4:26 am.
I'm back to my late nites & clubbing... Feels so so good to club with my girlies aft a long while & have fun! Its been a while....
Just started watching Sex & the City today... N GOD!!! its so so good.... n very very addictive!!! I wanna be like Sarah Jessica Parker!!! My GOD!!! NY NY... My current resoulution is:: to complete the full 7 seasons within a week's time. Love it Love it Love it so so so much!!! I know, I'm starting to get crazy already... haa...
I love it when my life gets all packed up... Makes me feel so 'wanted' haa... i know.. its a weird way to put it, n i'm weird for feeling it tis way... but somehow it seems to sums it up... When my social calender is packed, i somehow feel that i've got things on...n don't feel lonely or bored... guess thats better way of phrasing it...
Well, its back to my Sex and the City: The Power of Female Sex!!!!
- Thursday, January 13, 2005 / 1:37 pm.
My 1st blog of the new year. N what a yr it has been. I was on leave for more than a week since 31st Dec. N what a rushed leave it was. Went on a short holiday with my parents on a last min & I FELL IN LOVE WITH HONG KONG!!! its really mai dong xi, chi dong xi sia... Love it Love it Love it. I wanna go back there!!!
Though i think tis is the 1st time that i went o/seas shopping n didn't buy a single pair of shoes at all, but instead i got gifts n stuff that are much more more better!! hee... I wanna go back to mai dong xi, chi dong xi!!!
Can we go back in june????