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- Thursday, July 07, 2005 / 3:44 pm.
Met up with buds yest for dinner and club. Lavie being the organiser was late for dinner! But for the 1st time in a long while, i've waited along at paragon for the rest to come! I was early for godsake! Lucky alex isn't a latecomer type either. Wanted to go winebar to chill, but no bloody place to seat, then aft much deliberation and deciding, we went to soundbar to chill.
During then, aft seating down, got the feeling that i'm being blamed for making them walk frm zouk over. Like its my fault for not choosing the right place to go to in the first place. Its hard to accomodate to such a large grp. I can say that frm experience, its rather draining and sometimes i get the feeling that its not being appreciated aft all that was done. Its been more than like 4yrs, i've always been the one that ends up organising stuff, i know, i wasn't force to do so, i do it willingly, but still, i like to feel the appreaciation sometime. They do tell me that they do appreciate what i've done and my effort, but actions talk louder than words don't they? When things don't turn out right, on the spot, i can feel the negative vibes already. I don't blame them, sometimes i do also show my negative face when things don't go my way, but eventually, i know i'll always look at things frm a different angle and see it other ppl's way. Ain't nice to show a black face to others.
Aft kh val n alex left, we headed back to phuture to club. Bloody squeezy. Detested it. Got my toe stub on too! Pissed. Went out to meet Darrell n Timmy and met tis aussie friend of theirs called Chris. Aunt nancy said he is good-looking. For me, felt that he's bit on the young side, but still the boyish looking kind. Not bad actually. Darrell was funny, he's apparently at the age where mambo interests him lots, the dance moves n stuff. Haa.. Timmy on the other hand was looking bored. Totally agree with him that dbl o is much better. They left early too.
Oh, n i bumped into one of micheal friends, didn't recongnise him at first, think his name was Wei something, cldn't really rem, only know that the face is a familiar one. He asked if i was still together with micheal, hmm.. apparently, he didn't know. Told him no and he gave me a weird look, like why not? Didn't wanna go into details so i brushed him off by saying that i'm leaving for o/seas etc. He still had the expression of disbelief, but heck him lar, what does he know anyway. Then his possesive gf came up and gave me a dirty look, started putting her hands round him n stuff, n asked me who am i? Like i bloody care bout ur bf. Urg! Left them asap to join back to babes.
Left a short while later, no fate as grace puts it. True, i rather like the impromtu ones like last week. More fun. I wld also havta say gg in big crowd to phuture, ain't a good idea either, place too packed. I've become someone who likes my space when i'm dancing, i think dbl o n mdm wong spoilt me.