After cooking for myself for so long, i've treated myself to a couple of 'good' meals. Not the normal pasta/maggi mee type. Indulged myself actually. Hee.. but *nice*. I'm happy tat the food's at least feastable! *grinz* Does it look appealing?


Chicken Kababs (marinated with honey & soy sauce) and Lamb&Cheese Riso with Lightly fried Vege


Rice in Scallop&Prawn soup with chicken and egg tofu


Chicken Kababs (honey & soy sauce) with Pasta&Vege salad



Something's wrong with me, can feel it deep down. Can't pin point what is it exactly, but i got the feeling i'm gonna rupture soon if something's not done.

I'm not feeling at peace, that isn't the word for it. Its more like calm before the storm. I think i need call someone up soon. Feel like i'm losing ground now. Going outta my head.



Finally, its over!



Today marks the 50th day that i've left singapore and have been here in bris. Time flies huh? I guess, looking back, it wasn't that bad after all. In certain ways, i love being here in brisbane, but of course, the people whom i love dearly ain't here. That makes it tough.


Learning to stand up for myself, to be independent, to cook for myself everyday, to meet totally new people, to adapt to a totally new enviroment. After so long, i can finally say that i'm starting to get used to it. In fact, after a while, it really isn't that bad. The feeling of total independence and making all the decisions by yourself, is actually pretty great.


I've learnt to go shopping by myself, buy groceries, cook, do my own laundry and housekeeping. Learnt to take buses, to travel around the city. It actually sounds alot to take in in the beginning, but after a while, its really pretty easy.


I've had lots of time to sit and reflect, to think and plan for myself. The 'me' time i've got is something that i actually am starting to love. I can, for 4 days straight, just stay home and do nothing, read a book, do my laundry, housekeeping, go for a walk. Just not meeting ppl or going out. Its very rejuvinating actually, but i doubt it will be possible if i'm back in sg.


After 50 days, i can finally say that i'm at peace with being here.



Assignments? Hate them or Love them. If u hate them, then i'm totally with u! Urg! Bad enough that you have to write reports of like donno how many thousand words, research like mad, type, re-type, no plagarisim etc. They only score u a bloody 20% of your total. N to top it off, u won't even NEED it in the real world. AH! come on, why doesn't lecturers/education institutions get a hint? U don't even use HALF the items that u studied.

Damm!

To top it off, its bloody sickening like mad if u get an assignment that u bloody don't understand! I mean WTF is an annotated review? A review done critically of another review/research? WTF! Worse off, i have to research for 10-15 other articles to back up ur review? ARG! i'm freaking going out of my mind here, cuz i seriously don't see a point in tis assignement. There is NO AIM! Damm it, if it wasn't the fact that Business Research Methods is one of my complusary subjects, i wld have nv ever had taken it. The course title already tells u that its a boring one, with tones of theory to memorise. Seriously. WHAT THE HELL!

I'm gonna do way lots of research on my electives. Damm if i take another boring one. Spoil my bloody weekend. SHIT!



I HATE BEING HOME ALONE!!

Detest it, dislike it, arg! Don't like being home alone here in brisbane. Sorta scares me a bit actually. I don't know the place well enough, knowing that i don't have close friends n relatives ard me. But mainly cuz, i think i'm staying in a house, the feeling that this whole unit, there's only me, scares me slighty. Feels bit scary hearing the silence only and nothing else. At least if i'm staying in an apartment, i know there's ppl in the other units and i can hear some usual noises.

Another reason is because i don't like the way tis house is structured. My living room is actually outside, and exposed slighty to the cold cuz there are gaps. Thus, i can't sit out there now, if i'm not all wrapped up. N the seats! URG! individual, not a couch. Not comfy at all! URG!

I'm definately moving outta tis place next sem. I wanna stay in an apartment. Cannot take it already. ARG! I'm damm happy that i'll at least be able to stay in comfort for a short while come tis break of mine. I think i'm going outta my mind here already.




i can't concentrate. My head's pounding, eyes get watery. Every other min i start to sneeze, blowed my nose until the skin's peeling already. Tossing n turning the whole nite thru, body feeling hot one moment, cold the other, aching all over. I'm feeling absoultely terrible now.

in a total fix right now, cuz i need to get well in order to complete my assignment due on monday. n i have a impt project meeting tmr.

knows what it feels like to be down with the works, pressurized to complete my assignements and not having my close ones around me, all at the same time? Now i do.

I really wan him here with me now, miss his comfort, but he's so far away. God help me!







Its time to change my phone again. Sick of seeing the x70 already. Bloody boring. The only reason i changed to that was cuz my T630 was having problems. Yes, it is time. Saw a few nice ones that i really like, but knowing myself, the ones i choose are usually pretty expensive as in launch price above $1K. Look at these gorgeous babies, all to be launched at the end of the yr.



---- Nokia6280 ----------- N90 ------- Nokia6270 ----------- SonyEricssonZ520i ---------



its getting very depressing to look at my friends' blog. Esp those that are back home in sg. i get so jealous and keep asking myself what am i doing here in bris, with my butt half the time glued to the seat looking at my laptop. Everything's so different when they are back there and i'm here. Yes, i'm still unhappy bout the fact that i've absoutely no life on a fri & sat nite. Ya'll know i'm a party & people person, what the hell am i stuck in a place where its so bloody quiet. After tis experience, i swear, i will nv ever complain that singapore is boring. NEVER EVER! after experiencing long-term bordem.

N, friends pls take note, when i'm back in sg, this is a list of food i want to avoid:
1. Pasta
2. Pizza
3. Bread (esp Subway)
4. Burger King
5. Macdonalds
6. Maggi mee
the list is gonna increase, i'm getting way sick n tired of all the above food. i eat like at least one of the above items each day.

These are the food i'm craving for:
1. Stingray
2. Sotong
3. Steamed fish
4. BBQ chicken wings
5. Prata
6. Tao Huai
7. You Tiao
8. Oyster Omelette
9. Satay
10.Kuay Chap
11.Bah Ku Teh
12.Carrot Cake
13.Lo Mee
14.Yu Pian Tang
15.Sushi Tei
As u can see... the list is actually getting extremely long. I'm gonna make sure i'm taking the flight the afternoon flight back home sia. Everyone, be prepared to get called out for a supper meal when i'm back sia. No expense spared! I wan chomp chomp firstly, then bah ku teh the following morning, kuay chap for lunch, sushi tei for dinner and prata for supper! GRR!! i'm working up an appetite.



Yeap, its time for a change of blogskin. So there.



Hmm.. now i'm thinkin twice bout my housemate. Rani & Adele. Sometimes they treat u like u're not there. Other times, they are like ur bestest friends, tell u everything. Donno, feel like its a love-hate relationship. Haa.

Body now aching slighty, this happens from a total no exercise period to a 1 hr body jam session. Wah kao, mucles damm pain lor from all the stretchin. But its all good! Gonna force myself to go for at least 1 per week. Hee.. Hopefully, all my back ache will disappear then. Its getting more painful as days go by, lower back i mean. Esp when i sit for long hrs, or on the couch (i think the couch has support problem anyway).

Graces' bash was on yest. *sad* i can't be there! I cld still rem last yr, i flew back just in time for her bash at CB, went straight to the place frm the airport. Hee..Was so fun! I realised that i don't like to fly back from one place, then go home rest. I don't find a pt i guess, cuz arn't u already resting in the plane? So ppl be prepared! When i'm back that day! We're going out! For FOOD firstly. Hee..

Oh yah, was flpping thru blogs and i saw my couz! Oh, Kenny, msg me when u read tis! I kaypo. Its queStionAre timE! *MuwAhhh!!*



ARG! i'm down with sore throat & flu. Damm it. There's a bug gg ard. All my housemates are down now. Guess thats the sore pt bout staying with ppl, when one gets it, it spreads.

Woke up tis morning, and kitchen topic was food! Mostly importantly Indian food like Paper Prata & Kabming Soup! *Slurp* god! I'm missing that so so so much! Can someone be so kind to DHL me some? *wink*



thouGhts:

My headache's gone mostly. Thanks to a good sleep.
Woke up, looked out my window and realise i cld actually see the nice round moon just lying there on my bed, bright and pretty. For the 1st time then, i didn't feel that homesick. Felt comfortable. I think i've could finally say i have really settled in, Yes, i do still crave and longed to be home in the comfort of my friends and family, but the feeling is no longer that bad.

A few ppl i've met has told me that they had mixed feelings when they returned home, and realised that they have changed and gotten used to the life here. Will i be like that? Prefer life here in aus to it being back home? I doubt so. Perhaps not i guess, i'm still very grounded and attached to my friends back there. U cld say that i wld break down if i didn't have their support throughout. Wld i be able to find such good friends here? Maybe yes, but in a different way i guess. Not the kind that know ur quirks and willing to accept u as u are. Not now, for tis period, friends are just purely friends. I won't be willing to go all out and help a friend i've just met, i'm just not able to. Not like my darlings, girlies & buds back home. For them, i'll do just bout anything i can to help in any way possible.

U know, back then, i nv tot i'll be able to find such good friends, my darlings who allow me to indulge and me be me and talk things out and have wild fun. Times with them are when i really let down my hair and have great fun. My girlies, who have known me forever, been with me throughout my growing up stage

For the 1st time yest, i sat myself down and really did my tut. Haa. Survived thru 3 weeks not doing any tuts.I wonder if acct is gonna be easy for me? Today's lec was all bout A=L+OE+R-E. Feel asleep when he got thru explaining what is assets.

Was looking thru my friendster list. Came across Linda's name. Her birthday's coming. Read thru her testi and suddenly felt a sense of sadness. I guess it will always be like tat when i look at her testi. Still trying to accept the reality that she's gone. Flashbacks of our time working in citiphone, the little girl riding a bike. I've always admired her bravery and courage, her discipline and independence. Can always rem the advice that she gave me. Though we were nv close, but we still worked in the same place for a yr and more. She's always there for me to ask questions when i need to. Always regarded as a friend to me. RIP my friend.



Damm it! I'm so blur again. And it always hits twice on the same subject. This time round, i'm the only idiot and didn't get to meet anyone. To come for a tut where there isn't any this week. SHIT! ARG! I so miss yy, ll & the gang, with them ard in poly, esp yy & ll, i know i won't get into tis kinda situations. ARG!



How do u consitude a person is selfish? How many times does it need to happen before u can really say that selfish is part of the person's character? Or is it because we are all in aus, thus we havta look after our ownself? But even if so, there's isn't such a need to ignore a person and be rude is there? Is it really in her character or has she always been like that thus i am feeling this sense of rudeness?

I do feel that i can only be truthful to Hui, she's the only one that seems to be able to understand me well and it gave me a sense of wanting to look out for her. As for my other housemates. I donno. I seem to be getting mixed signals. Sometimes they both are so nice to u, u don't feel that they are like strangers, other times, they way their actions are, makes u feel as though they treat u like a housemate and nothing more. To each our own problems and we handle our own stuff.

When i think of Hui, i don't have any discontent with her, her sincerity is very true and makes me feel close to her. I'm really thankful that i have a friend like her and that she's stayin in the same house as me. In many ways, she's pretty similar to me in terms of character and how we go ard doing our stuff. Thus, i feel that she'll be a friend to keep. One that i wld like to go out with and have fun reguarly if possible when we return back to sg. For now, my other housemates, doesn't give me that feeling, its like if there is a meet up back in sg, i wld go feeling like its an obligation rather than really wanting to go, i guess.

I really don't wanna open my mouth to them and tell them what i feel bout them straight, cuz after all, we will be staying in the same house for another 3 more mths at least, to avoiding all the trouble. But shd i really tell them what i feel eventually. I mean, i don't hate them or anything. But there are areas which really irks me n gives a total selfish feeling.

So many examples pop into my head when i think of areas in which they do stuff that i dislike. I think the one that pops up the most is that i don't like the way they keep shouting for either me or hui when smthing in the house goes wrong or is not done. I mean come on, u are just asking us if we were the ones who have done it, so ask, don't need to put in an accusing tone when u do so. The person that does tis very often is Rani, but she automatically turns to me or hui, for example when the sink is not cleared, she doesn't even ask Adele. Yes, she and adele may be good friends and lived here for 1 yr already, but that doesn't mean that u havta treat ur new housemates like outsiders rite?

Haiz, i donno, feelings are starting to pile up as one 'incident' happens after another. But i do know that i will definately wanna move outta tis place during next sem. I seem to be able to get along better with Guan Hui & Serene. I think i wanna move in with them. I think Hui will come along with us. Perhaps it is really because of age gap is guess. The same age ones really do stick together better i guess.



Yeah! i am going to get out of this boring place for 13 day! *cartwheels* Yeap. I'm heading down to Adelaine on the 22nd Sep, then to Sydney from there on the 28th Sep then i'll come back to Bris on the 4th Sep. Yippe!! I'm sooo glad i'll be able to see my aunts & friends! But tis trip cost bout AUD$340 on airfares alone. Haiz, guess i really gotta get a job soon..



Attended my first Ekka fair yest. Damm it was great! Its really an eye-opener and all fun. I guess the company i went with also mattered lar. The usual gang, 6 of us. Ekka is actually this once in yr fair, when ppl all over australia & the world come to brisbane. There are dog shows, cattle shows, horse shows, the stunts, funfair rides & games, there were selling of farm animals too like cattle, and u get to pet the animals. Besides that, have wine tasting, shopping stuff for factory outlets and international food! There's really so much to take in a day! Of course, there are showbags as well, they are like goodie bags, but payable, with vouchers and stuff and chocolates. Got many types to choose from. I bought the coca-cola though. All in all, was really a great day, though i didn't manage to win the big spongebob squarepants toy *sad* but i liked it lots..


At the showbags arena!


Oh!! I'm in softtoy heaven!


I wan all these!


Serene & Me


Evon & Me


My little teddy! Made by moi!


The Cows waiting for the judging competition to begin. Boy, are they HUGE! none of the pathetic looking ones we see in m'sia or thailand.


Me & mickey. He's a 4yr old collie sheepdog. Top breed & awaiting for his compition to start.


ain't she pretty! tired after her run!


They're all so pretty & handsome! Love them all! I wan one!


Yeah! Rides arena!


He's eating outta my hand! haa...


Baby pics & their mama! Greedy little ones...


GuanHui & Me


The main show arena. Boy its HUGE! bout the size of our national stadium back home and larger though, to cater to animals..

The rest, are of course in my photoalbum.

Lastly, I WANT A DOG!



The pics taken on mambo @ mercury. Its really nice, to have the clubbing feel & side of me back. Hee...


yeah! drinks' up!


My kahkees - serene, evon, myself, guanhui & huihui(in bout almost everything, if there's a mahjong set, then it'll be really great! hee...)


The whole gang - Ah Du, Alan, Evon, Serene, Myself, Hui & GH



ARG! BLOODY FREEZING COLD!! Horrible weather! How to study in this kind of coldness? Rained in the morning and since then, its been windy all day. Couldn't even sit still without shivering! All wrapped up like a penguin and yet i'm still shivering. Better not rain tmr! ARG! Cannot take it already. Even my bed is cold. How to sleep? Spent the whole afternoon under my covers trying to study my financial management, but ended up falling asleep. JIALAT! I think if tis carries on, i'll nv be able to get work done! Damm!



Oww... My ACHING FEET! Poor soles of my feet. Walked to much today. Totally aching! Went for mambo @ Mercury today. Yes, we had a mambo jumbo nite organised by the singapore society from both UQ & QUT.

But before even the mambo started, my feet ached like hell from all the walking. Adele fetched me down early to meet GuanHui, Serene & HuiHui @ UniLodge @ 7.30pm cuz she had to report for duty at 8pm. Hung ard UniLodge for a while, then met Ah Du, & together we walked to HighGate Hill. Evon & Alan's place. Wah seh, the walk damm bloody long lor, from UniLodge, thru QUT campus, on Goodwill Bridge, passed Griffith Uni Colleage Campus then reach. Its even further than me walking to my uni campus. Evon&Alan's place damm dark sia, scary, but we found it eventually. Watched bit tv, chatted, then we walk from HighGate Hill all the way BACK to UniLodge! Wah, i can tell u, my feet were like about to break by then already. Damm Damm painful to walk lor. Nvm, UniLodge wasn't our destination. We had to walk all the way to Mercury. That walk distance was like from WheelLock Place all the way down to PS. Damm bloody long lor, & the road wasn't a straight one, it was up slopes down slopes. KNN, my legs were about to break by then already. But still persisted on. Cold & feets aching, what a combi!

Anyway, ended up reaching Mercury in time, went in and found a spot on the 2nd floor overlooking the dance floor. At first the music was boring, but then RnB came on! My fav! But none of the rest wanted to dance. So end up, myself standing on the 2nd floor, groving to the music myself. Lucky Adele & Rani ended their duty already, then we met up with Inrah, Judy & gang to head down to dance floor to boogie. Not bad, is much better than Zouk's mambo though, cuz its suits my taste, less 80's hits and more RnB! Hee.

Boogied the night away after 3 drinks, then they had tis mini pagent thingy at 12.30am. BestDress, BestDancer & Lucky Draw. Ok lar, all in all. Think i enjoyed this experience of clubbing much better than the last time. Was more fun. Think cuz i met Inrah, Judy & gang. Their more the 'go-out have fun' type. More like me, so i guess i had a better time.

Adele had class in the morning, so she headed back first. The rest of us, WALKED all the way back to Queen St Mall central to have Hungry Jack's for supper. KNN, by then my feet couldn't take it already, decided to take off my heels & walk all the way barefooted on the street. Didn't bloody bother already, weather was a blast of cold and my feet were aching. So i walked on cold paths all the way. Was quite fun actually. Hee.. Had supper, chatted a bit, then we all headed home.

For the 1st time, i told the Aussie Cab! Damm shiok lor. The cab's nice and warm. Hee. But its damm expensive, more worth it to take at night i think, cuz there isn't a midnight charge, but the meter jumps damm fast. The distance from city back home here in bris is almost the same as back home in sg, but then, the cab fare here cost $14.50! So expensive. The meter jumps almost as fast as ur heartbeat. Think every 5-10secs. JiaLat. No wonder i'm not tempted to take cab. Anyways, damm shagged now, need to rest liao. Got some shopping to do tmr... *yawn*



Tears rolling down my face as i'm typing this. I just saw my aunt's email to my mom. (yes, i have access to mom's email).

Quoting my aunt kim:
Poor Desi only been there 3-4 wks and she's already home-sick. She does miss her 'Mah Jong' you know. It will take her a while to get adjusted to the new environment i.e Food, weather and hours of shopping are all different ! Shops in Brisbane close rather early as compare to Singapore.We all have had a look @ her 21st photo album - on line of course. Lovely cake. Mummy and Daddy seemed very pleased. Her little girl is a 'big girl' now. Well, in your heart she's still your little girl, Right ? How's life like without Desi by your side ? ....

Aiyo, i'm so so touched by my aunt kim. Think if my aunt think this way, mummy must be missing me a lot. Times like this, i learn to cherise my parents more and more. Esp since they are not by my side now. I miss them so much. There's so much i wanna tell mom, but can't do so now. So many feelings that i wanna tell her. I do regret not spending more time with them back in sg. I wan to see them now so so much! *sobx*

Still rem back in sg, before this experience, i had wanted to fly out so much. Not be under my parent's thumb anymore. Had insprations to travel, to live abroad. Talked about it so easily back then, until coming over here, then u wld be able to really understand the phrase: Nv say it too easily until you've experienced it. Its tough, really really tough. I can say many a times this past mth (OMG! its officially a mth since i've been here!), i've wanted to just pack my bags n leave, head back to sg, to the comfort of my family & friends back there. But i've stop myself, knowing that its a cowardly thing to do. Instead, i've kept pushing myself forward, counting down to the days til i'll be back home in sg (which is another 104 days more). Haiz.

The whole family is gathering back in pg. Upset! miss another gathering. Haiz, The Loh, Bellingi, Anderson & Chia. ARG! bloody upset lor. I won't get to see my aunt kim for another 3yrs at least. Damm it. & i miss my couzs so much too. Aunt Sub said grandma is so happy that everyone's coming back to see her. Grandma's health isn't so good now. She's always doted on all her grandkids, miss her so much. Didn't spend sufficient time with her back in pg. I must do so this dec. Wanna make a long trip back to pg to spend proper time with grandmama.

Missing everyone is terrible on my moral. Horrible. Upsetting. Angonising. God, i sure hope i can pull thru these few mths & still be able to concentrate on my studies.



No, i'm not skipping lecture now. Decided to manuver my time-table a bit and change my lecture time slots, so that i don't have break and spend my time walking ard uni. Gonna try the 4-6pm lec today for FINM. Bit worried bout walking home though, donno if i shd take the safety bus or just go ahead and take the walk, cuz it will be dark by then. Hmm.. Let me try to walk today, see how it goes.

Think will i be able to wake up in time for a 8am lec on thur? I'm doubting myself for some reason. Hee... But anyways, i'm finally getting into the swing of doing tuts, but not yet for assigments. Still try to pick up doing that. I gotta do a Annotated Review for my RBUS, what the hell is that. I mean seriously, review is just a summary, but the lec wans bloody 1000-2000 words. KNN. How to drag it out. Then the subjects not say very easy lor. What Consumer Boycotts or Employee Socialisation or Entrepreneurship or Product Innovation & Performance or Service Employee Performance or Leadership. WTF. I can only choose from these few topics. So bloody bland lor. I wonder how i'm gonna pull thru the assigment. *yuck*! Help!

Oh! & Happy 40th Birthday Singapore. Everyyr this day, without fail i'll be out somewhere feeling patriotic, looking at the fireworks. This yr, unfortunately, that record has to be broken. But yet, memories of doing the NDP back in sec2 comes back. So much fun! Everything together and all the innocence & fun & stuff is really fantastic. How i wish i revive it again. Hee... But to ya'll back in sg, enjoy ur holiday ar. I don't have. UPSET! Got lecs & tuts today somemore. WFH. But then, i have a holiday next week. Midweek wed! 17th. Haa.. Happy! but then, i think i'll be bored too. Cuz nothing to do except stay home & study. *wails* ARG! F!



Had so much fun over the weekend. Its been like ages since i've packed up like this. N i'm so happy that its been a great weekend.

-Fri-
After feeling demoralised, headed to city to meet serene, guan hui & huihui for dinner and some shopping. Craved for chinese food, but still, after eating the prawn noodles, its still non-comparative to back home *haiz* Shopped up and down Queen St Mall til shops closed at 9pm. Bought a top and a skirt though. Then decided to go back home early as we were meeting the next day.

-Sat-
Finally! after 2 mths, i went KTV! ahh! So happy! The place was in Sunnybank. So i had to pull myself out of bed at 9am in the morning, in order to meet Guan Hui & gang in the city to take bus to Sunnybank. Upon reaching, it made me feel like home again. Cuz in Sunnybank its all chinese. Mostly ppl from asia stay there, majority chinese. Stepping into the KTV, wah! Seriously all chinese, didn't see a single ang-mo in sight. Felt so much like home, that i'm happy. Surprisingly the songs are very much updated. When i asked the staff, then i realised that the boss is from HongKong, no wonder the Cantonese songs selection is huge, but nevertheless, so is the chinese songs from taiwan, m'sia & sg too! They have Zoe Tay songs there too! Really a surprise. Sang for like 3hrs and it cost bout 11bucks per person. Then we decided to walk around the place. Its pretty huge, lotsa chinese foodstuff there. But i decided not to buy, rather ask my dad to get my aunt lisa to bring in for me. We then headed back to the city, did a bit of shopping, then headed home.

Tot we're gonna slack home after watching Wedding Planner on tv, but Adele asked if wanna go to a strip club, as she's meetin a friend there. Then we decided to tag along. Wah! Nv expected a strip club to be soo packed. Was an eye-opener sia. The girls there have really good bods, makes me jealous. Felt bit weird looking at the woman so upfront. Didn't dare to sit along the bar, decided to choose a booth instead. The strip shows are really 'wah! wah!' (no other words to describe). All in all i can say that its an experience not to be forgotten easily. Eye-opener i would say.


Me & Serene


The shopping partners. From left: HuiHui, myself, Serene, GuanHui, Evon.


The whole gang less Xan.(whoes taking the photo) - I'm the only odd one out from UQ, rest from QUT.

-Sun-
After all the excietment yest, decided to do something bit low-tuned. Went for a Sushi buffet lunch at Toowong, arg! it totally sucked, in my opinion. Everything is with Avocado. Their sushi has no variety & they don't have Chawamushi! Can't believe they call themselves a japanese restraunt. The only good thing is that the portions are big, i was full by the time i had my 5th sushi. We then headed to Southbank to catch a show - Fantastic 4. Not bad. Ended the day with some clothes shopping in which i bought 1 shorts, 3 tops, 1 skirt & new bedsheets, as well as the weekly grocery shopping. Bought my 18pack can of coke. I'm almost done finishing my current one anyway. Hee...

Yupz, thats to my more exciting weekend. Got more stuff planned up tis week.. think there's a mambo night on thur at Mercury planned by the Singapore Society ppl in UQ & QUT. Gonna go! Then there's EKKA on SAT! i'm sooo excited bout that one! Really wanna see this once in a yr event.



I'm starting to feel totally demoralised, upset and ARG!! Just heard from ah xiang that the whole gang's gonna have a chalet in 2 weeks time. Everyone's gonna be there! UPSET! N i'm not THERE! ARG! At times like tis i just wanna book a flight and head back home!

Its really quite sadding at times to hear bout all the fun that ur best buds are having back home and yet, you're so far away, stuck in a place where there's really nothing to do, and u can't be there to join in the fun. Totally demoralising, makes me question myself again why did i choose to come so far to pursue my studies. Did i make a dumb choice? Why did i subject myself to such 'torture' in a way, to pull myself out of my comfortable enviroment and plop myself into somewhere that i basically gotta start over? Yeah, u have all the fun of experiencing a new life, new friends, learn new things. But i somehow think that for now, i'm seriously so attached to everyone back home that it feels totally not worth it. Damm upsetting now. Think i'm gonna ruin my weekend if i stay home and think more bout it. Need to spend some $$ to make myself feel better already. HAIZ!



ARG! I'm totally blur blur blur like sotong!! Can't believe i'm so pa jiao! Tot my marketing tut was a 2hr thing that starts at 10am today. Crawled out of bed, and rushed to uni cuz i tot i was late! Waited outside the room, then i started to look ard thinking what have i gotten myself into by signing up for a class that has only guys in it. When e tutor finally came, all the guys started to go in, looking ard it was seriously not a single girl in sight. After everyone went in, i was still sitting outside, contemplating if i shd step in or not. Then, decided too. Walked in, asked: 'Is tis marketing?' 'No' was the answer i got. Then i really got 'huh?' Then i looked at my time-table again, looked at the location, looked at where i was, then thinking 'correct what!' Decided to try the class beside it and it wasn't marketing tut as well. URG! i was like so pissed off. Walked to resource center, use the com & checked my schedule. THEN i saw that my tut starts at 11AM!! ARG! So pissed off at myself, cuz i looked at that bloody schedule tens of times for the past 3 weeks and i NEVER noticed the TIME!! Shit Shit. Feel so bloody malu at my own self.

But the upside to tis pa jiao experience is that i got to know a jap clasmate named Takumi. Haa.. He was also as blur as me and made the same mistake. Too bad he's a yr younger than me. Haiz, average looking, not very suai leh. Anyway, he's gonna be my project mate, together with 2 other jap girls in my class for marketing as well. Think their names are Asami & Ryani. Having a drink with Takumi was (hmmm), just everything i said he was like either 'wow' or 'really?' or smiling away. Just cartoon lar.

Then, walking home, something else happened. Me, blur blur! never see where i was going, ALMOST tripped cuz i hit an uneven path. Lucky, there was 2 guys walking behind me. One grab my left elbow, the other grab my right arm. Bloody malu at this pt of time. Think i felt my face getting red. After thanking them, we started chatting (cuz walking the same way mah). One was called Chris, the other called Josh i think. Reason why i rem Chris name, is cuz, he's more handsome mah.. keke.. both are the surfer dudes pattern, wear boardshorts, t-shirt & flipflops kind with the okley sunglasses kind. Yeah, u get the pic? But Chris's hair towards the blondish side, whereas i think Josh's is more brownish. Yes, both are aussies, but Chris said he's from Sydney and Josh is from Cairns. So chatted along and got to know that they actually were living one street down from me! Hee.. But they are in a different faculty from me.. haiz.. in Engeneering. So chances of bumping into them is so much lesser. But i think next week i plan to walk the same path at the same time, hoping that i'll see them again *evil grinz*

Anyway peeps, need ur help as well if possible. Got an assignment to do and the topics' bout Reality TV like Big Brother, Temptation Island, Amazing Race etc. Can give me some comments on why you would be/are attracted to watch them? In what ways do they interest u? Drop me a note k? Your help (as always) would be greatly appreaciated!



I so wanna go to Ekka. The showbags look totally fantastic. Any of ya'll out there wan anything, let me know ya? i'll try to get it for ya. Check it out here



Cooked the best meal yet since i've arrived. Check it: 2 Grilled Chicken & Pork mixed sausages and 2 pieces of grilled lamp&cheese riso with a side dish of mixed vege fried with onions. Sounds good? Hee.. working on improving my cooking skills here. Hmm.. then perhaps i can organise dinner parties when i get back to sg. Anyone wanna try my cooking skills? *grinz*



When bored, u log into friendster. Look thru your friends list. See what they are doing. Read thru ur past testi. And cause a flood of tears to well up. Damm it. Just made myself homesick again. Donno how many hundred times i'm gonna put myself thru tis.



Had a shock today. Shock due to knowing my tutor's age. He's 22 yrs old only! ARG!! Just a yr older than me and he's my tutor for Business Research Methods. ARG! Shock shock! I just couldn't believe how young he is. Throughout the whole tutorial, i was like looking at him and trying to digest that he's only a yr older than me. Top it off, he just graduated and got his degree last yr and now he is doing his masters there. Damm it. Everyone seems so young compared to me!

Now, there's tis girl in my tutorial class for RBUS, she's 18, but she's already doing her 2nd yr in BusMgt. Makes me feel so old. Got the feeling she's the prissy poser kind. Carried the Big LV white colored monogram bag, dress up to come to class. See already, cannot tahhan. N just so happens when i'm walking to Acct tutorial, saw her getting into her car, her car being a mercedes sports - SLK. So young but yet she's already driving a SLK. Wah, i can't help but be jealous. Its human nature 1st instinct for me. Grr. I'm determined to work harder in the future so to afford a lifestyle that i wan.



Now, subject here is tutorials. I absolutely detest them. Don't like doing them. Nice word for what it meant was homework. URG! But i don't have a choice do i? Not unless i'm heading for flunking the subject. Read so much stuff that i don't think i can digest it all in a day. Why can't i just stay at the point when i'm in heaven of doing my emaths & amaths homework. Now, thats the only homework in my history that i enjoyed doing. Moving forward is tough! Suckx! time to hit the books again. URG!

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