_* Accept? *_
- Thursday, September 22, 2005 / 12:51 pm.
I've just got to blardy accept now don't i. de merde system.
Shit Shit Shit.
_* FARKING *_
- Tuesday, September 20, 2005 / 4:51 pm.
THIS TOPS EVERYTHING!
FARKING FARKING UPSET!
SPOLIT MY HOLIDAY MOOD.
I'M BOILING MAD.
SHITASS.
FUCK!
_* Swirling *_
- Thursday, September 15, 2005 / 5:02 pm.
I need a distraction. Now.
Head's been swirling too much.
Feel like a bitch.
Hate the feeling.
Distraction badly needed.
I need to watch something.
Totally regretted not bringin my sex and the city here.
Damm it.
Anyone gg china soon? help me get the O.C. if possible?
Pissed at myself.
Shit.
_* Drained *_
- Wednesday, September 14, 2005 / 3:59 am.
Sick. Tired. Drained.
_* fuck *_
- Monday, September 12, 2005 / 11:37 am.
fuck fuck fuck. no other words to describe the situation i got myself into. other than fuck! damm it. Worse off, i can't go out with my sweeties to distract me. I need someone to shake me up, to wake me up, to tell me what i shd do. Ah! damm it, i know what i shd do, but what the hell did i get myself into. FUCK!
_* Mixed Signals *_
- Sunday, September 11, 2005 / 10:49 pm.
I'm getting mixed signals again.
Feeling lost.
Confused.
What a time for this to happen.
Damm it. I tot like here would be peaceful. Boy, i was wrong.
_* Sat *_
- Saturday, September 10, 2005 / 10:02 pm.
I had good fun today. Went for a makan night with the SSS. Ate stuff i missed so so much. & i saw Daphane! My god, its been really ages since i've last saw her, but i'm glad we clicked off well. Hee.. After that, me rani adele amelia & shahu headed for desserts. Went to this place called Freestyler in Rosaline. Damm the desserts are good! Though expensive, but totally worth the indulgence. Hee...
My dessert: Berry Deluxe (*slurp!*
Rani & Adele's: Flourless Chocolate Cake (damm shoik!)
Shahu's: Berry Chocolate Cake (Its good!)
Amelia's: Creme Brule
Shahu and Amelia got like really really high after the desserts, they are like wacked totally, keep singing in the car, boy, it was defening in some ways. But its good fun lar, we went to have a look at their place. Its actually very nice! I like. Has a pool and a bbq pit area. Hee.. but the rent's ex though. Shahu showed me the pic of Maldives, (she a maldivian), damm nice can! I wan to go there, now i know someone whose actually from there! *grinz* Its like so cool, she said like maldivians are usually divers too, its like normal for them, i was like 'wow' damm great! I wanna go maldives, anyone else wanna go?
_* Marking Days *_
- / 9:45 am.
Alrighty. Mark down. The 60th day i've been in aus. The 50th day i've been here w/o my love ones. Fast? I don't think so.
I wonder when i can start the countdown to going back home. hmm.. lavie u wan me to start countdown? *grinz*
_* Urge *_
- Friday, September 09, 2005 / 9:41 pm.
i feel a sudden urge. to pack up my bags and go home. to leave everything behind and back into the comfort of my dearest family and friends. but i can't, can i? *sigh*
you never really knew how much you love them, how much they mean to you, how dependent you become on them to keep you grounded, how much they had supported you in whatever you did. My love ones like that, i never would let go. Hearing their voice of comfort over the phone, chatting with them over msn, just makes me miss them even more. The times here isn't easy and it doesn't get any easier, what i would give to trade for working and studying back home. How much i miss them. The feeling hadn't subside, won't subside til i see them and hug them.
Will the feeling be lesser next sem, i really do doubt so. To think back in the past, all i wanted was to fly high, leave home, be independent. Til i've done it, i never really knew the best is always home. Home where i grew up, home where my dearest ones are, home where i am who i am and everyone knew me as i am.
Everyone told me to embrace the time i have here, embrace the life here. I guess, life everywhere is actually almost the same, its the people around that matters. I do want time to pass faster, I wan sep22 to come sooner, i wan 14th oct to be here now! Most of all, i wan to go home as soon as i can.
I really do miss them badly. There's so much i want to tell them, to share with them. Its really no words can describe.
_* Headache *_
- Tuesday, September 06, 2005 / 2:56 pm.
I'm having a headache. From trying to search for a new apartment for next sem. ARG! So bloody terrible. U know how difficult it is to find a 4 bedroom unit in Toowong? Damm it. N of a budget of max $480 per week. Its so so so tough. I think we need like 1 day to walk around the place to look for a unit. I really want to faint already. search n search until i'm sick of looking. Perhaps its not the season now, cuz everyone hasn't put up the details of when its avaliable. But i don't wan to be stuck next sem without a place to stay. Damm it. Tough Tough Tough!
_* Smthing interesting *_
- Monday, September 05, 2005 / 8:44 pm.
GH told me smthing interesting the other day. Its bout the End of the world. Apparantly there is speculation going around that the end of the world will be in 2006 or 2008. There's many theories bout this, but the one that stands out the most and seems the most realistic is Global Warming. Some scientists believe that as earth is one of the nearest planet to the sun, and that we are drawing near and near to it as we circle around each yr. Eventually, the sun's rays will be so hot that it burns the ice at the two poles causing a galatic superwave, which will raise the water levels 10times. The superwave, when strikes, will be like the recent tsunami, but on a much bigger scale. Imagine that. Surfed around and came across this article. End of Times 2006 . Sounds unbelievable? But the principle behind it seems true enough. Along the same time, i found a couple of other interesting webpages. Unexplainable . Now, this one is interesting, it has everything from scientific to the paranormal. Reading through them, it sounds scary. Plus, its like almost bedtime now, don't wan to read further. Hee.. The other one Theologyweb Now, this forum is interesting. Someone posted that the recent Hurriane Katrina shows that New Orleans is actually sinking, like Venice is now still sinking. I can still rem Cassandra told me previously that europe is actually sinking, bit by bit every yr. I wonder, is it really sinking or is the water level rising?
_* A Change *_
- / 3:36 pm.
Time for changes. Yes, most obviously i've changed my blogskin (again.) Got sick of a fairytale, lifes changed so much for me. Bed of roses, my foot!
Now, time for pictures:
RiverFest on sat
on citycat, down to southbank
wind's blowing. me, adele & hui
the air show. plane's too fast to catch, but they flew so low!
in celebration of guanhui's 21st
the birthday girl cuts the boston chocolate cheescake! *smuck* its good!
yeah! fireworks start. damm crowded though, thus my position isn't that great.
up up they go!
now, that yellow thing, is an aeroplane. this aeroplane flew pass with a fire blaster behind..
the finale. (shit, kana block by the tree)
the fireworks are so near! see...
n more!
the majority group of us.
the usual 4 of us.
i saw this on the way... cute huh!
Alrighty. Today, woke up feeling damm bored. Was suppose to go for CardioPump now, but my mother nature decided to visit me today. Thus, too uncomfortable to go. Haiz, feeling pretty sucky, decided to make myself a nice lunch.
Its Grilled pork chop & sausages, with mashed potato, baked beans & baby carrots.
Hee.. i think i'm getting the hang of the cooking stuff. Now learning all the marinating skills for grilling. Anyone wan some?
Needed to get him outta my mind, so i did a semi-redecoration to my room. Changed my sheets & redid my picture wall. Had more pasted up instead.
It got so much that i did another wall too...
Hee... now i can look left & right and see the ppl i love. Ain't that great? Well, tats the day for me. I've been trying n trying my best to keep occupied, so that i won't have time to ponder n think. Its time to push myself to start on my assignments. Who would have ever thought, it would turn out to this extend that i'm doing my assignments early just to keep myself busy! *sucks!*
_* Over *_
- / 12:03 am.
After all the shit i got, i went out and try to do the thing i do best. PARTY! Had to get him out of my head. Over n done with. But! for once, my 'partying' didn't involve downing shots (as much as i would like to.) Nope, my housemates ain't the kind to go drinking with. Til now, i've yet to find any clubbing partners either. *haiz*
Woke up feeling like shit on sat. Was glad i managed to talk to my babes on fri night. But, i still cried myself to sleep then. Its seriously painful. I didn't wan to let my housemates know, still don't feel that i'm close to them at that level to tell them this kinda stuff. Anyway, forced myself to study for the acct test later in the day. Managed to cramp some stuff down. I don't think i did great on the test though, what do i expect anyway.. Oh n..
Happy 21st Birthday to ChenYee, PeiPei, JuanJuan & GuanHui!
RiverFest was on sat, as plans were made, headed to Southbank for a picnic n celebration of GH's 21st Bday. Wasn't in the mood, seriously, but i'm determined to put it all behind me. Gave myself the prep talk and went for it. The place was really really crowded, like national day x2. Ate, chatted, sang the b'day song, etc. Then the fireworks started. N Man! they were fantastic! Better than NDP's in some ways, but i think, the display variety was a bit limited, they played ard more with the colors. But it was pretty good, the released the fireworks in tune with the music. I was standing behind 2 tall guys, n one was like trying to dance to the music in the middle of the crowd. Boy, i was pissed. Fireworks ended after 5 songs, then we decided to head for dinner. At west end. walked n walked, pumping myself up for some chicken rice, in the end sold out! n i had to settle for pineapple rice instead (which wasn't that great.) Home, then conk out. I think i tired myself out from all the walking and energy used up. Just as well, at least i won't think too much n force myself to sleep.
Today, went to watch Charlie & the Chocolate Factory. Yes, i know, its been out so long already. BUT, aus movies are released so slow in comparative to back home, its like 2 mths late. For that 2hrs, it was great, i plugged myself into the chocolate world, throwing all thoughts aside. (if that were to happen for the next 2 n half mths, it'll be damm good.) Had a good time at the movies at least, came home, watched tv til i know i'm getting tired. So now, i've gotta force myself to sleep. I hate it. ARG! I hate the feeling of pain, the heartache, the tearing myself up with the 'what ifs', the cursing him. I didn't know hating someone can be so painful. God, i hope i can pull myself through this.
_* ARG! *_
- Friday, September 02, 2005 / 9:02 pm.
I've had it with relationships. Up n down, up n down. Damm it!
Takes 2 hands to clap. Yeah, i know all that shit. Right now, i'm so bloody fustrated that i can't see straight.
A week without a call from u, n finally when the call came, u say that we need to talk, need to take a breather???
Takes 2 hands to clap. Yeah, i know all that shit. Right now, i'm so bloody fustrated that i can't see straight.
A week without a call from u, n finally when the call came, u say that we need to talk, need to take a breather???
WHAT THE FUCK!!!
All thanks to u, a bloody fine day now sucks like mad. Pissed off my mood for any studying for my paper tmr.
All thanks to u, a bloody fine day now sucks like mad. Pissed off my mood for any studying for my paper tmr.
DAMM U!
Tis is the final straw!! Its over, all over. Kiss my ass!
_* Spring! *_
- Thursday, September 01, 2005 / 7:56 am.
Its the 1st day of spring! Flowers blooming. Very pretty. It really is a nature's wonder to walk pass the same trees everyday and see it slowly bloom day to day. Everything's looking so nice now. Weather's gettin warmer too. Can wear shorts to sleep already *grinz*
Thanks to lav & po for listening to my woes. I'm working hard to put that behind me and come outta it. Its time to move on with life and keep a positive view always. *mucks* thank u my dears.