_* Tranquility of Life *_
- Friday, December 09, 2005 / 8:41 am.
I love my life. Now. Everything feels the same, everything feels so it. All the ups and downs, everything fits somehow. Thinking bout it, i really do feel so much of a drastic change compared to my life in brisbane. There's only 2 things i miss bout aussie rite now - the cool weather and my tv shows. Other than that, life for me down under, doesn't hold much of an interest. Perhaps my friends were right, i should have chosen perth or melb, where majority of my down under friends are. But then, if i didn't choose brissy, then i won't have met hh, serene and gh.
Life these past few days has been very fantastic. At home, i can see how much my family do miss me. Love them so much. Daddy has been so good, bringing me and mama out for dinner whenever he can. Mama, will so willingly wan to come pick me up after work, we'll go shopping and stuff. Da gu, oh, she's always a dear, my nanny since young, she still knows which are my fav dishes and cooks them up whenever i ask. Er gu, ever so loving, knows when i'm broke instantly and gives a little to support me through. *grinz*
Yes, as po said, it is really surreal that i'm back. I can't really believe it myself. Sometimes, i have to pinch myself to make sure its real. Life really is the best for me back home. Home where all my friends and family are. To those who still wishes to fly off and think of living the life away from home, all i can say is that be prepared for the heartaches and obstacles that come, and boy, they arn't small ones, and there's really no one else to count on but urself.
I have to make my summer hols count as much as possible. Be it working or having fun with friends. It has to have enough memories to make me smile when i think back. The past 2 weeks started the ball rolling, i don't wan it to stop ever! The multitudes of birthday celebs are coming up, i won't miss anyone of them for anything else in the world. Hee. The time for giving is ard the corner as well. Looking forward to xmas lunches, dinners and everything! *woot* This is yr gonna be even better, cuz grandma's coming down! Yipee! Life is gonna get hell busy for the next 3 weeks, but I LOVE IT. Actually u know what, i do live for all the hustle and bustle in my life, its what makes me happy, to feel busy and wanted. Life is really all good now. I've had my time to reflect and think, but for now, i just wanna live in it. I've decided to cut off that part of my life thats been hanging me up and down for the past 2yrs, its time to let it go and now's the best chance, cuz with how busy i am, i won't have time to feel sad and think all that much anymore. Yes, that shd be it. My decision made.