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_* Random Thoughts *_

- Sunday, May 21, 2006 / 1:17 am.

random thoughts of everything;

i'm addicted to chocolate; i think i'll die frm eating too much of it.
i've lost my appetite; meals is for the sake of eating, i no longer want to eat, i just eat.
i miss the smell of flowers; winter is here.
i miss home-cooked food, don't need to explain furthur.
baking is really good for the soul, but i need a proper oven.
books and assignments have become my life; how i hate them.
i'm a workaholic; i enjoy the pressure of doing something and getting paid for it.
da vinci code, makes my mind work, yes, i love the movie for its intelligence.
i miss the days of being chauffered ard, yes, i'm such a spoilt brat.
my zen badly needs an upgrade of songs, its getting old.
i so badly wanna sit down in a good bar and listen to music whilst enjoying the chardonney.
my nails are horribly short and bitten, yes, the perils of studying.
eons since i've last had a facial, my pores are expanding.
its been 6mths since i've read a good book that kept me enticed until i can't put it down.
i hate my hair; two-toned color does me no good, i want jet black.
the frizziness is getting to me, sometimes i ask myself how come i don't have great hair like others do.
the baby hair, so totally not sophiscated, time for rebonding.
the 'mo peng' arms and legs; scars needs to be removed badly, i need a good scar reducing creme. know one?
rule me victorious, i've finished grey's anatomy season 2. i love it, don't ever argue with me over it.
coffee addiction, its good for the mind stimulation.
i wan my teddy badly, no matter how i treated it, its always there for me.
in exactly 1mths' time, i'll be home for the hols. such a reminder that exams are drawing nearer.

random thoughts of feels;

perhaps loneliness is a good thing, better than fuming over human characteristics.
my long term goals are hazy, everything is blurry now.
friends, will always be just friends, family has to come first, i've learnt it the hard way.
its been a while since i've had a genuine smile, laughing is just because it funny, not a smile frm the heart.
my future looks bleak, perhaps i am destined to live out my life alone?
sometimes i wanna escape to the big brother, life changing experience.
retail therapy used to be so great, now i've lost the drive for it, weird.
i dread next semester, the thought of living with 3 guys do scare me a bit.
i keep going back although i know i shdn't, am i such a weakling when it comes to r/s?
things happen for a reason, but why is the reason never clear?
sometimes i just wanna whine, but no one ard will bother listening to me whine.
my imperfections are far and wide, i don't deny; when i ask, tell me in my face, talk behind my back, don't be surprise when i confront u.
perhaps i'm not such a PR person as i tot i am, its all in my head.
lies for myself; fabricated pack of reassurances to make me feel better, in the end, made me feel worse.

fucked up life i have.