_* Stressing *_
- Wednesday, May 03, 2006 / 10:41 pm.
*BRR* COLD! 12degrees out now. *BRR*
Yeap, i know, everyone in the whole wide singapore is in the process of enjoying or going-to-celebrate the end of exams and semester. Me on the other hand, is currently stressing over my deadlines. I have freaking 3 deadline next week, and neither of them are small.
FREAKING STRESSED!
I get the sense that i'm losing the edge, i'm seriously going bonkers. I soOoo need sane ppl now to keep me down. Everyday, i wake up, i sit in front of the com, the whole day, i spend in front of the laptop trying to think and analyse and research for my assignments. Starting to breakdown again. Thank god at the back of my mind, i keep telling myself, i'm not the only one in this situation, everyone in australia studying is too. Actually no, it was Luke who pointed that out to me.
DANG!
I miss talks, everyone is so busy with their life now, that its really an independent time. Had a mini quarral with mom on the phone just now, made me think twice about going back home for hols. Ppl have been advising me not too, that i shd maximise the time i'm in aus, to get the most out of it. To go work, and travel. Perhaps i should. With the likelihood of LL returning back in late jun at 50% currently, if she stays, i can buy a ticket and fly to perth to visit her then. Or i could travel to melbourne with Shury, and visit Daphane & Howe there. Or meet up with Shury and Weiying in Sydney. Or go Cairns with Eunice and Geraldine. Attend their graduation ceremonies as well. So much tempting plans to make me wanna stay here. Plus, i just found out that there's a promotional job available during this period, that makes good money.
*sigh*
Really thinking twice bout flying back for winter hols now. Seems like everyone back home will be quite busy too, working and stuff. Yes, i know we'll have coffee sessions and clubbing and the food and most of all see each other. Yes, i love all that and really would like to do all that. But will i regret my decision in not staying on during winter hols? Another thing is air ticket, spending 1200++ on it, for that 1mth or so. Should i? I don't know, seriously, i'm so half-hearted nowadays, i don't know.
Drained. Badly need a recharge.