My energy amazes me sometimes. Most esp so this week. Since sat nite, i've had an estimated of 4-6hrs sleep each night. Why? 3 Reasons. Deadlines, Gong and Anime.

Deadlines. Seriously, the meaning of that word should be changed. Lines will be dead if not met. Sheesh. I'm talking crap again. Ok, handed in the 1st of my many assignments on monday, killed an allnighter for that and scraped up with 2000+ words within 6hrs. Hopefully, my 'smart' crapping pays off. Spent the next 2 days, toggling between assignment research, Gong and Anime.

All YM's fault. Give me new dramas to watch and got me hooked up to this Korean drama. Shit! I spent the whole of tues finishing the 24 episodes. This Gong, made me use up at least 1/5 of the tissue box, as if i'm crying while having a runny nose. Damm it. But its really not bad though. Will give it 4 outta 5 stars. The sore point for me, is that its fully dubbed in korean, between watching the show and reading the CHINESE subtitles, blardy hell, made me use up so much brain cells sia. The worse part. CHINESE subtitles, BA-KA-RA!

Sheesh.

Now, Naruto is another matter. I watched an estimate of 20 episodes quite a while back. Didn't really catch on to the addictive-ness of the anime initally, probably cuz i was too busy with others.. which come to think about, is likely to be CSI. Now, i got 178 espisodes in all. NAN-DA-DEI! Then, itchy fingers me, had to click on Naruto on wed, then it got me hooked up again. arg! killed about 40epi yest, so much so that during my 5hrs of sleep last nite, i dreamt of the anime. All the jutsu, sharinga, sensei. ARG! its driving me nuts. But i simply can't put it down. Who would have thought that i'll be so addicted!

On the other hand, it goes to show how bored i am lar.
*grinz*

Despite my mad 'naruto' state. I managed to scrap up a 10min worth of presentation for this morning. Forming, research and typing it up within 2-3hrs, in the wee hours. Thank god it was an easy one. But dang, this presentation, or more accurately, this subject made me learn so much that we've taken for granted for. I didnt realised that there was so much to learn about culture. Moreover, that we take the fact of us being bilingual, for granted many a times. To many of my tute mates, our ability to toggle between the 2 languges is amazing. Yes ppl, i'm the only Singaporean in that class.

But by god, i seem to be the one with the least experience in living overseas, or has the least amount of mixed family heritage. That class of Arts ppl, when the introductions were made, the combination of all of them, and me, sounds as if we've got the whole world in one class. There's Japaneses girls, lived in US for a yr or two. Aussies, who did a yr or so exchange in Austria, Rome, Russia, Athens or whatever European country. German, US and French exchange students. A muslim, from kenya who migrated to canada, then brazil. A Eurasian who looks Jap, lived in 5countries. Don't even get me started about their family heritage. Donno what mixed what, and this mother side, half french etc. BAH! i seem to be the most BORING one. Mind u, all the above ppl are just my TUTORIAL mates. Imagine the rest of the lecture class! To top it off, my tutor is a vietnamese fench/thai. Doesn't it seem like we have the whole world of culture background in one class?

Thank god, my topic on integration of culture caught their interest. My choice of topic, something only Singaporeans can explain properly: Singlish! *muwahaha* Explaining them the meaning of the words, the history and whats it meant by 'le,lor,lar,le' is enough to sufficent their curiousity. Can't believe i managed to make all that crap up. U know how long-winded i can get? Well. In this case, was put to good used. Buy-yah my way through. Haa. Who would have thought that intercultural communication could be this interesting. Initially, i took it cuz this elective doesn't have any final exams, now, i think i'm beginning to like the class.

ok, *ka-bish* its back to the studying for me. Midsem tmr morning, and i have not started studying at all. This time round, i sure hope a combi of my logical crapping and analysis will be put to good use. Topic: Product and Brand Management. Vietnamese lecturer again. Whats with my subject tutors this sem, not a single one is aussie born. Haiz, and sadly, only 1 lecturer is SORTA cute, but the subject is so boring that him being cute can't even make up for it.

The weather's gone bonkers. Just when i tot i cld keep my winter clothes and heater, the heavens started to cry as if watching a korean drama show. On-off-on-off. The whole week! Its been 5 days. I can't do laundry. Going to sch everday in the raining outfit 3-quarts jeans and covered adidas. Morning is freaking cold, getting outta bed means shivering. All wrapped up, by the time i reach campus, i'm sweating. Walking home in the afternoon, hot hot hot! Shower in the evening, out and i'm shivering again.

Know what it means to have an unpredictable weather? This is it.

On another note, i think i've did something wrong, digging my ear shit i think. The left ear gone weird, as if its blocked. Dang it.

Now, the one thing that made me scream this week.

WHOM INFECTED MY ITUNES WITH HOKKIEN OLDIES?? one moment i'm hearing 50cent, the next moment, teresa tung ar bo some other old lady. BAH! no exchanging of mp3 songs already. The hard disk drive stays put. BO-SHU! Think i'm a 55 yr old auntie ar? I don't do CC karaoke. Sheesh! I have the sneaking feeling that my mom has something to do with this.

*sly eyes*

Gonna get to the bottom of this. Interrogation!
Outz.



BoShu, BoShu, BoShu.

Thats my new word nowadays. How i concucted it. I have absolutely no idea. Yes, the brain works in mysterious ways i must say. What it means? Just about everything i guess. It kinda subsituded 'ba-ka-ra' for me. I have to stop saying 'ba-ka-ra' nowadays, cuz the angmos who heard it, tot i was saying bacarrat and asked me if i was itching to go to the casino!

Sheesh!

Been taking things too easy though, amidst the moutains of assignments, i still have the ability to feel utterly bored. I can't get serious about stuff like uni, simply can't. Again and again over, but i just don't learn the lesson.

A thick-headed head added to the already thickken skin.
*blah*

But i'm really taking this semester easy though, being considered a laojiao at this. Just last week, lem was stressing horribly over the assignment, but me on the other hand, relax-in-one-corner. Thus, him and clint started brushing me off as zai. Sheesh. I'm not zai lar, just taking it too easy! Haa.

Slacked off the gym classes and took up jogging instead. Recently, kit got hold of this video called carmen electra aerobics striptease. Had a wheel of a time doing and giggling alongside of it, man, those moves are ranchy, not meant for the innocent eyes. But the video just doesn't do me good lar, i end up aching to go clubbing.

Talking about clubbing, ben asked me and joyce to this event end of next mth, to hear 4 worldclass dj's play at family. And for the 1st time, i'm hesistating to go!

Me! Hesitate to go club when i complain of bordem. Something is terribly wrong with me!!

Last thurs, aison asked me to go klub kandy, and i said no! *blah* this slacko lifestyle is doing me bad. The laziness has gotten into me and stuck there.

Besides that, the appitette has gone all wacko as well. I stopped the starbursts, when they are like my saviours last sem. arg! on top of that, i stopped the red rock delis as well. *blah* lastly and most shocking to me, i stopped chocolates!

ARG! what the hell has gotten into me?

Last sem, i stopped rice. This sem, noodles are going outta the window as well. The past 2 days, for lunch, it was just chicken drumstick soup with mushrooms. Geez. I'm starting to not recognise myself. Thank god for coke and timtams. Although that said, it now makes me crave for the cheesecake shop.

HmmmMmm.. think its time to physco ppl.

*muwahaha* Evil me.

Ok, toodles, thats it for today! Still have some thoughts though, but its going around in the brain maze, and haven found the exit yet. So its gonna stay there for now. Its off to doing research again. Culture!

*dished face* whoppie.
Outz







A sudden rush of feeling overwhelms me
A deep ache.
Gnawing and Growing inside me.
I think back of those times.
I sigh deeply.

See what friendster does to me??

Its time to say goodbye.
I concede defeat.

Bye.



Thats it!

I've done enough damage already.
My poor atm card.

NO MORE SHOPPING FOR THE REST OF THE MONTH!

I shall conserve my atm card until i hit melb with Joyce.
ARG!
Its as if the lion in me was released.
I am soOOo horrible.

Enough! Seriously.

So, shirls, no more VS for me too. That is, until like Oct. My wishlist is starting to look never ending either. And u know me, i don't have just 1 wishlist. Don't get me started on the rest.

Luckily! Mummy dearest caved in got a new LV bag & wallet for me. Cuz she got herself another one too.

Disgusting rite? Haa.

So that solves my 'whats-my-next-bag' syndrome for a while.

A WHILE = 2 weeks? Hee...

I know, i am getting more and more horrible. I cannot imagine what will happen when Mummy and I go to London. Seriously cannot imagine. Daddy, i really sympathize with ur creditcard. But, haa.. i'm not all that sympathetic either. *muwahaha*

Ok, I now need to makeup for all the horrible spending.

Yikes! 3 deadlines next week. I am soOo dead.

After that, Sheam's coming to stay with me for about a week or so!
Yipee!
Then Faith will be here for 3 days.
After that it will be to Melb with Joyce for 5-6 days!
Midsem over, then remaining pile of 6deadlines.

PHEW!
Busy Sem!

Pixs later peeps! Ekka yest was an ABSOULTE BLAST! I've never seen fireworks at such a close distance before. Fantastic, makes me look so much forward to RiverFire on 2nd Sep!

Yipps!




I tot everything was in balance. For once i didn't really feel anything, no hurt, no piss, no anger, even so, no happiness. I thought life for me now was just smooth sailing, not a cloud in the sky. But sadly i was wrong. Very wrong. Somehow, it took a little something to trigger it off, and everything came toppling down.

In balance i was not. In fact everything seems to be leaning left currently. Piss, yes i feel. Its a chore to keep telling myself not to care, not to care, to ignore. Anger is boiling within me, and i'm afraid someday its gonna erupt soon. I never could comprehend how a person could be that inconsiderate and blind. How can it be that its right in front of u and u don't seem to see it being a problem. Is it that my standards are too high? I don't think so. All i'm asking is for u to open ur eyes and think! Look around. Don't go through life being blind as a bat and expecting others to wait on u. For goodness sake. U are a guy (i'm not gonna say u are a man, because to my standards, u are simply not grown up to be a man yet!), be more considerate. Yes! Considerate. Put urself in other's shoes, u're sharing a space with ppl, sound travels, we don't need to know ur presence. CONSIDERATE! I do not want to stoop down and call u names, curse u, but shd things go on, i shall do so. I'm sad to say, in my eyes, career and character wise, u are a disappointment. So don't go act all ego, cuz u have NOTHING to back up ur ego. In fact, u shdn't have an ego. Grow up and Wise up. If u want to go out or is thinking of doing so, then ASK ppl out. Don't go hinting every single time expecting ppl to ASK u instead. U are not that wanted u know. Next, when greeting are concern, Greet back! don't go 'urm' like its expected u HAVE to be greated. I'm doing it out of being polite, but U are simply just being rude by doing that every single time. Ever wonder why i don't have things to say to u? Cuz i don't see that there is anything worth talking to u about. Come on, u don't need to keep saying that u've got no money and go 'wah' whenever i mention about travelling to places. I'm 22, but yet, i've got more work experience than u. When i say i wanna go these places, it is not on my parents expense, I work and save! Unlike u, i don't have a silver spoon waiting on me, i wasn't brought up with a maid in the household. Enough said as it is, i know u will be just a passerby in my life, u cld never turn up to be one of my close friends, simply becuz, the way u are, u NEED to grow up. Compare urself to men ur age and then judge urself. I've done enough judging and had finalised my conculsion as it is.

Ok. About him, i shall stop here.

As for other factors in my life, i hope i'm not screwing things up. That the choices i make will not be my demise. I'm learning as each step we go, to let go, take things easy and simply enjoy life, but to boil it down, it is not who i am. I'm bossy, i like control, i like to know where i stand, i hate uncertainty, i can be a good friend, but do not take me for granted, as then i will shun, i'm not one to be taken advantage off, do not misunderstand me being easy going as easy to climb over, i will speak my mind, whenever i think is an appropriate time.

Each day, i wake hoping that the day will be good, somedays it is, somedays it isn't. The shit in life comes in clumps for me. Sometimes all i wanna do is flush it away. Perhaps this is a test in life for me, if i pass, my next life will be better. Confusius, how can u not like it? I'm trying to find a balance, perhaps in Hofstede Scale i'll be a Switz. Whatever it is, its not a gold platter i know.

The Shit in Life.



WHOOT! WHOOT! WHOOT!

My Favourite TV Drama is starting its new season on Sep 21st!

YIPEE! YIPEE!

Here starts the download...

ESTATICTISM! I Simply Can't WAIT!




Don't like looking at friendster nowaday. Makes me impaitent. Cuz everytime i flip thru friendster, some friends' profile of pictures will be a photoshoot. That makes me think of OUR photoshoot. Almost a mth ago!

*AAARRRRRRGGGGG*

Its coming to a mth! I'm getting more and more excited. Can't wait to see the pictures. I wanna see how it comes out! Gosh! It was such a happening day. I really wanna see how it was captured. The excitement bubble is growing inside of me as i think more of it!

BUT! Kelvin couldn't finish them in time, so now, our photos are on location with him while he's doing them o/seas. Ironic as Graces had told me, that our photos are in france and yet we are not. Now, perhaps we shd ask Kelvin to photoshop Paris in. That'll be a thought!

Wahahahaha

Photos in Paris, please come back soon!

*sobx*





Typical movie, ending as much as i expected. *sigh* i miss a good movie, unexpected movie with an indepth. None of the movies releasing anytime soon seems to interested me that much.

Somethings wrong with me.

*ponders*

But other than the movie, the rest of the day was pretty good. Movie and dinner with a friend and then a good long chat as we walked from location to location. *smilez*

Seems like i've found a kahkee for movie, a kahkee for shopping and kahkees for clubbing. This semester is starting to look up.



250bucks worth of damage done today.

Great fun with Joyce, somehow i've found someone whom loves shopping and going crazy with comments as much as i do. We critize, we contemplate, we giggle, we laugh, we talk, we go gaga over cute guys.

*grinz*

More's to come.



Last Sun, decided to trot along with Jieyi, her cousin Nicole and bf Rob, to her uncle's property up in SunShine Coast. Along the drive, i thought back of the last time i went up the coast - with eunice, shury, aison, erin: up and happy, early morning to Noosa Beach - i started to miss them there and then. I miss us, singing our hearts out in the car to my zen blasting, our laughter, excited about the trip. The fond memories, we really had good times. *sigh*

Now, back to the present. The property is in Bellthrope, a place with a great view of GlassHouse Moutains. It would be really fantastic to wake up every morning to that view. As much as that, i doubt i'll like to stay there, being so secluded, everything far away, on top of the moutain, with ur next door neighbour 0.5km away. Nah, definately not for a city girl like me.

Yes, i am a city person, i can't do without shopping malls, without coffee houses, without the hustle and bustle of the city life i so dearly missed. People talk that they are sick, they need to get away from it. Me, i missed it too much, i can so much stay in the city, would be good. Thats why, i think in cities like NewYork, London, Taiwan & HK, i will trive.

Muwahaha...

Although said, i still won't complain to an occassional trip away to Bora Bora. Come on, its Bora Bora!! I would quit my job anytime and go (if at that time salary is <$3K per mth), that is IF SOME KIND HEARTED SOUL WOULD SPONSER ME. Muwahahaha... Now, its back to Bellthrope and the photos taken.





WARNING: Photos OverLoaded...

Ok, i've spent the evening arranging my photos folder. Finally, after Jo sent me the photos, i can do all the editing and arranging. Boy, did i realised i really clubbed a lot during the hols. Gosh... Its really detox time for me now. At least 15weeks of detox to go.

To reflect back, the past weeks in sg, were really one of the most fabulous packed time i've had. Although i've suffered on sleep, but i've partied like there's no tomorrow. I missed that now. All the events i've attended, the clubbings, the chills @ acid/bala/wala.

The World Cup being a highlight and fantastic excuse to my parents for staying out.. I really do miss that. I miss daddy coming home in the evening, we sit down for dinner and discuss the betting plans for the night's game, and mummy sitting there asking the qns over and over again, then me heading out thereafter to watch the game. Those 2-3weeks were good times, where the ONLY time me and my parents unite in betting. Haa.. As weird as it is.

During this short break, i've met many new friends. Ppl that i've enjoyed hanging out with, gg clubbing with and having a laugh and smiling away. As po mentioned when we hanged out for the last time on my departure date: our social circle has expanded tremendously. I have to agree. Somehow, i've brought my partying mindset back to brissy with me. Been itching to go out always, finding kahkees and stuff. But then reality sets in for me, and i know assignments and readings are the only thing i'll be doing for the next 15weeks.

15weeks, it seems like a lifetime, but then if u look back, its a short time, looking forward, it feels like forever. *sigh*

Ok, enough talk, i'll shall now hand it over to the photos...

Starting with:

If i'm not wrong, this was really the ONLY time during my hols break that EVERYONE was there. And i really mean ONLY time. Referring to the ONLY time all 8gals got together, with the guys in attendance.





Taking bit time off clubbing... attended graces convo. Man, it was fun!


Then its back to Clubbing again...


Oh! i did something productive though during the hols, i've cleaned out my shoe collection. Well, its not the WHOLE collection, but its the most i cld fit into the space/pic. Haa.. i think i have bout 10-15pairs not included in there..


In between, we decided to detox for a day or two, and did something a bit more homely, with mahjong as a sideline...


Finally! The PhotoShoot day arrived. Whey! It was fun! All the things we did, getting hot irritated, being silly no matter where we are. Those are the nice times, the good times i shall dearly miss.







Of course, these arn't the official photos. I was bored. But i only took location 1 shots, after that, too busy and tired and irriatated already. OH! there was something funny that happened after the shoot. We had lunch @ Tei thereafter, and our last shoot was the ol' SRS uni, so when we sat down and ate at Tei, they allowed us to take the Student's Special. Wheee.. We were just amusingly happy! Haa.. So, our ol's sch uni does come into good use.. hee...

A chill in between did us good.


After so looOoonnGG... us 4 darlings are finally back in the same place doing originated that brought us together (besides citiphone, that is), one of our loves: Club!


Of course, i was there with others too!



Now, for my 3 day marathon of clubbing. Phew! I can't believe i was that active at night and was even running my errands in the day. I think i must have slept only 14hrs at most within those 3 days!








Phew... after all that was over.. the day arrived for me to leave for brissy for the 3rd time..




Yupz... that pretty much sums up what i had done for the rest of the hols after pauline's bday party. Of course, the exceptions of mahjong, movies, parta. Are clearly missed. Now, though shall head to my cold bed and sleep..

Off day! WhoppS!

ps: original photos are uploaded in my photo album!



Dragged doing this for a while.
New Skin.
Woot!

ps: updating in process. taking it slow and easy.



5weeks flew pass in a blink and here i am, back on aussie ground. Those past 5weeks, i hold dearly every moment close to my heart.

Its amazing the energy i have when i'm back home. I've done so much within just that period. I've clocked more than 10 mahjong sessions. Clubbed every week. Prata-ed so much. Pattaya Rice of 6 plates. Chilled out.

I've spent time with my girls, most esp so Graces. She really is my bricky lin. I can always count on her for giving me an honest opinion on everything. The usual in-your-face attitude, thats why i love her so much. Saying goodbye to u at the airport isn't easy my dear. Yes, it will be 2yrs before we next meet, hopefully sooner. It is difficult to leave such a friend, one as close to me as u are. U know me so well, sometimes it can be scary. The same, i know you. I know that u are always there for me. We're coming close to a decade of friendship my dear. And yet, to celebrate that point of a decade, we're not toget doing so. Yes, many friends have told me that there's always msn and voice, but things just isn't the same. Its hard for me to know that when i return back to sg during yr end, Grace won't be there for prata, to hit the clubs with me, to give me laughter, that i won't be able to pick up the phone and call her as and when. Ask her go swimming toget, have our milk tea downstairs. All these small little things, she's been there, to know that the next time we can do it is 2yrs later, isn't easy for me to accept. But i have to face reality.

This hols, i've come to know that another dear friend is leaving for work in China for about 2-3yrs. The only regret i have, is that i didn't manage to spend more time with him. He has been such a good person, reliable and just a good guy. Alex, all the best. Do come back and visit often, if not, i'll pop over the see u then.

My Darlings were another highlight of my return. We've clubbed every week. Jo and i, gawd. But i so love her. She's been there for me, when i felt bored and need company, she's been there for dinners and chills.. I do miss her so, i'm glad to know, at least when i return yr end, she will be there for me. I'm losing one clubbing kahkee already, i can't lose Jo as well.

Its been hard for me to settle down, but i've come to realised that this sem, i seem stronger. Cuz i know at the back of my mind, this sem will fly pass. 16weeks won't be that difficult to pass. I've become more independent. Settling into my routine and hopefully being able to kick up a notch in studying. A tough last sem, but at least, friends are still ard.

life's a bitch, but embrace the bitch and you'll find it to be an angel
love it, don't abuse it

Desiree, aka Jenn or Jean.
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