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drawings in the sky
- Wednesday, December 16, 2009 / 1:56 am.

i've never thought to pen my thoughts online ever again. its been that long. but instilled, i need an outlet.

life is never kind is it? privilaged, spoilt, brat, queen, cold, aloof. i've heard these terms many times, said about me, told to me by those who know me and don't know me.

As dec comes round again, i enclosed myself again, thinking of the year that had passed, what i've done, accomplishments and failure. In the midst of all the 'celebrations' and plans for the days to come, i'll always remember his anniversary.

D - i am trying.



I for OMNIA
- Thursday, July 24, 2008 / 10:19 am.

Lemming again.
I'm getting this, time to look for new cover.

*rubbing hands eagerly*

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Balance
- Wednesday, July 23, 2008 / 10:18 am.

There's always talks about work-life balance, how one shdn't become a workaholic and neglect 'me' time. Or the other way round, have too much 'me' time and neglect work. But the latter seldom happens in this kiasu society..

However, for me its never about find work-life balance, i've got that one down pat as my 4yr stich at citi taught me. Til date, its finding the balance between love, family and friends that baffels me. In the past 6yrs, the situations always happens this way:

I seem to come to a conclusion that i can never have it all. Cuz this time, one more situation becomes apparant: Family life is smooth-sailing, friendships are a rock BUT love life drops down the cliff.

I'm frankly getting very tired of all this. Perhaps its time i let it all go.




Moobbbsss
- Wednesday, July 09, 2008 / 10:41 am.

Sudden thought:

Won't it be fun to organise and do a flash mob?

Hmm.... whose's birthday is coming up... ***** ting***** .... nah... me thinks me friends won't be crazy bout this idea.



Buzzard
- Wednesday, July 02, 2008 / 2:56 pm.

My first (and definately my last) trip up that was absolutely NOT satisfying.

For 2 simple reasons:

I DID NOT MANAGE TO EAT A GOOD PLATE OF CHEE CHONG FUN NOR BOWL OF KUAY TEOW SOUP!!!



*BAWLS*



This has never happened since the time the first trip having my kuay teow soup.

I am absolutely upset and horrified that i'd managed to let this happen.

BAAAHHH!



I may seem very melodramatic here, but imagine this: paying $300+ for airfares, back to a place where i go only once or twice a year, and the ONLY place that sells decent food everywhere and for 3 days there, not even having a DECENT meal. Gedit? Its like an LV fanatic going to Paris, walking by the flagship store at Champ Elysees and NOT stepping into the store. Never happened and never should happen.


UPSET!



Missing
- Tuesday, June 24, 2008 / 2:28 pm.

The path of finding thyself, who i am and who i want to be.
Times like this makes me miss aussie.. of recent late, i'm aching to be back in brissy.
Where i can find a nice quiet spot to lay back and relax with a book on hand.
Vacations with friends are always loads of fun and fantastic, but I think its time i went on one of my own.
Me thinks its time for me to take a trip back to Oz.
How does Oct sound? Hmm...



Looking Forward
- Monday, February 18, 2008 / 2:11 pm.

Gonna be a short and brief week for me. I'm looking forward eagerly with best anticipation to this weekend.



BANGKOK!!!!



The last time i've been back there was like when i was 14! thats like freaking 10yrs ago lar. Everyone tells me that the place has changed so much. I think i'm gonna be so Swah Ku. haaa... Anyway, an entire itenary has been planned and every single night involves drinking. Route66 here we come!



Random-ness
- Tuesday, February 05, 2008 / 1:48 pm.

Nails extended

my general indulgence on a monthly basis. Jo scolded me the other day cuz i've been pretty bimbotic when it comes to my nails. But hey! i'm a girl after all, entitlement given by default. Moreoever, i can't be Ms Bore all the time. Trying to strike a balanced life here. Fast. Serious. Bimbotic. Slow. Lazy. Happy. Ansty.

Back to my nails: to protect it and trying to be careful takes patience. mainly, it means that when i drive, i try not to turn too sharp/quick to avoid banging my fingers against the wheel. I don't open drink cans, generally i push them to someone else to do them for me, my colleague sitting beside me has become Mr. CanOpener. haaaa... Typing on the keyboard slowly so that the nails don't get caught in between the keys. Carrying my bags with upmost care, so that slinging won't break anything. Zips needs to go slow. Sounds like a lot of trouble, but as SSA generally says: 'ling ke si ye bu nen chou' meaning rather die than look sloppy/ugly/unglam.

Shopping

i did too much of that for the past 3months. My credit card is proof staring numbers back at me. I'm so dead cuz i've dug too deep into savings. BUT, i'm completely satisfied with my purchases, motto being: qian si zhuan bu wan de. Something that i think Mumster is a living proof example. Haa. Small purchases asides, Mumster has been hinting (a tad bit too frequently) that she's intending to change cars and the hint being that i'm to be the other half sponser. However, based on the fickle minded changes/comments i've heard, its gonna be an uphill task. I think i wanna get my own. Sharing with her is a pain-in-the-ass. One moment is a Peugeot 307 Coupe, then its a Camry 2.0, the latest in the list red BMW 3 series. All in a span of 2 weeks. Like that how?!? Get my own car i comment. I'm simple, there's one i've had my eye on for a while already: Suzuki SX4 in white. See? I saw that 2mths ago, rave about it at least once a week and til today i'm still faithfully lemming. I'm committed. Haa.

CNY

Gatherings, gamblings, drinking. Yokes! i think i need to have a much needed rest. BUT! from the looks for the past month and the month to come, i don't think i'll see that rest until March. bahaa.. don't get my wrong, I love my busy lifestyle. But once in a while, a weekend in Bintan would be good from the soul. Judging from how my lower back's been screaming, i'm looking forward to the Bangkok Massage quite eagerly. Back to the topic: CNY = 4days of pure socalising, gambling, eating, collecting ang paos. Man... that makes me NOT look forward to work next week, although next week looks interesting. haaa....



Car
- Thursday, January 31, 2008 / 1:45 pm.

*muwahhaaaa*

Green light! Car Shopping! Wohooo....



Kids
- Wednesday, January 30, 2008 / 5:48 pm.

Something's come over me today. Seriously weird. I was absolutely angsty this morning. Grouchs and Grumps all over. Refused to wake up (i think thats a result of the late night 3&2way conversation), spent the morning irritating my colleagues, hopping all over the office socialing with people and out for breakfast.

After lunch was much better, however dear old me being around too many preggie ladies these couple of months, started to churn thoughts this afternoon of having kids of my own. Yes! KIDS! I'd admit, I'm a kid lover. Babies from 0months up til the age of 2 attracts me. I'll gurgle and try talking to them in baby language. Spoil them rotten if i have the chance. But never had the thought of having my own crossed my mind.

Close friends knows that i have a whirlwind social life. Its practically impossible to find me at home on a fri or sat nite. I'm always out somewhere doing something. But somehow i'm able to imagine myself being at home contended with a KID! The joys of motherhood and the wheels of memories that comes with having children. The laughter, the joy and pure bliss.

Alamak! What is happening to me?

I blame this on too much Karen Cheng archives, the Preggie Mommies and too many Baby Showers.



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